Ok so for the past few days I've been in somewhat of a funk. I think it's a combination of homesickness, exhaustion, various other little things.
1. Homesickness: I never thought I'd be missing Utah be I really am! I feel like I'm missing out on everything! Don't get me wrong I'm incredibly grateful for this opportunity Kenyon and I have been given but I'm missing the little things! I'm missing seeing our nieces and nephews grow and play, I'm missing my friends babies being born (SARAH CARR), I'm missing being with family and friends! It sounds like I'm complaining but I really am blessed to be here and making money!
2. Exhaustion: I have never worked so much! I'm getting 40 hours a week plus! It's great because we'll be making lots of money which is the reason we came all the way up here but I'm sooooo tired at the end of the day! All I want to do is sleep when I get home!
3. Various Other Little Things: This is one of the biggest reasons I think I'm in the funk that I'm in. Kenyon and I have chatted and we've decided to wait before we keep trying to get pregnant (for those who don't know I was pregnant but miscarried in March) and this has been a bit hard on me. It seems that everyone around me either is pregnant or has just had their baby. This is awesome and I feel really happy and excited for the previously mentioned people but every time I hear about it I get teary eyed. I keep thinking from time to time about the baby I would have had and how far along I would be or what it would look like. I hope that doesn't sound crazy. Everyone keeps telling me that it's just not my time or it'll come but for some reason it just doesn't help me. I've been praying about it but I just can't shake this feeling. I just think I need to find something to keep my mind off of it.
I hope this post didn't sound complainy or whiney but it's nice to have an outlet to get things off of my chest.
On a different note I think I'm getting the hang of this blog stuff! I'm really liking it so far!
Thanks for listening!
